Documenting Experiences
with Mental Illness
& Neuro-Divergence
That Strange Sadness: The Morning After a Suicide Attempt
Waking up from a suicide attempt is a peculiar feeling and is one that ultimately only 6% of people will ever experience. My attempt was not a cry for help. I don’t believe that such things exist. A person who attempts might regret the decision instantly but in the second that they actually make it, they mean it.
Things Your Suicidal Friend Wants (You) to Hear
Malcolm X said it best: “when we replace ‘I’ with ‘we’, illness becomes wellness.” We need our community. We need our community to hear and, at times, see through us.
I hadn’t even considered that being ignored triggered me, and prompted me to act so recklessly. But to answer her question, yes. I finally felt like the depths of my pain were understood by my community.
But just because people understood did not mean they knew how to react to it.
Giving Up The Fight
The idea of having to fight my mental illness every day until the day I die is one of the things that triggered my suicidal ideation the most often. What good is living life if you don’t even get to enjoy it because you have to fight to survive?